Chapter 2. The Dawn of Sweetness..

Leaving behind the sour taste of sugar free tablets i ventured into F.Y.in the very same College. My girlfriend (now ex) switched over to other college (Thank GOD). I scored a decent 71.67% in H.S.C. and with this score my parents were looking forward to me doing something else alongwith B.Com. I gave it a thought and as it was decided i laid my hands over Institute of Company Secretaries of India. Yep! i enrolled for the CS course. I boasted of doing this course along with other 2 of my groupmates. I registered and BINGO, i was into it....

Going throught the Campus was fun and more fun was watching the new admissions takin place for F.Y.JC students. The degree students expected FRESH MAALS and they were never dissapointed. I took those FYJC admits as children. I told you i have graduated from a child to boy, so no longer fetish of childrens. They needed time to play around in the College and i was helping them doing it. I flirted around with my batchmates and made sure i enjoy every bit of it. Flirting has some advantages, it gives you an opportunity to make either a girlfriend or a best friend.  Whatever it may be, you benefit in both the way. I started analysing each girl and the thing which attracted most towards a girl is her dusky complexion. I hate fair personalities. I am of the opinion that i do justice to the dark complexions as people/boys tend to chase the fairer ones..

I flirted around with everyone... While flirting i came around the girl SHE (refer my earlier post) who was just an aquaintance before and now i started knowing  her... Lets name her something different other than SHE... lets name her ANGEL......I started noticing Angel and this noticing was a bit different.. In the process of knowing her i got closer to her....

I liked being with her and enjoyed her company.. She had good facial feature comprising of plum cheeks small nose and a defined lip line. She looked like a Real Angel when she used to dress up in a Salwar Kurta, embossing an impressive lip stick and a long decent ear ring. Her hair style looked like a hight tide in the sea. Real Beautiful.

Day by day i got to learn more bout this Angel. She had a firm personality not only in terms of looks but also in terms of mind. I started looking at her as sumthin that refreshes my mind. I ended up cumin by the same train in which she used to come. By now we had enhanced our friendship to a good level such that she knew me well (atleast by name). I started joking around with her and sometimes sitting around with friends in the Railings of the college. Ohh.... I forgot to mention bout the Railings.. The railings of our College was well known for foundation of many relationships. The railings used to be thronged by the College students untill the watchmen came along and shooed them off. Students from FYJC to TY hungout over dat place. Such has been the situation that students started making out their own distinct place where they sit everyday. The sitting-on-railing will be the most memorable part of CHM students. Mixed up with every emotions it was a roller coaster ride for any new comer.

Meanwhile i started noticing my Angel day by day..  I was afraid dat whether i am sure of what i am doin... "Am I again getting into the trap??". To get closer was i always wanted to achieve. So I tried a trust test on her. Ended up telling her that i have a crush on one of her friend. Though i knew that her friend had a boyfriend, but then, it was just a test.

Mind me, i started trusting her from then.

The year started passing out in a idle manner. I used to get disappointed at the time i didnt see her. This feeling gripped me with fear of getting disappointed. With a moderate amount of friendship we ended the F.Y.B.Com.. I think she scored a First Class and myself a Pass Class.

This was the beginning of sweetness. I enjoyed the part of my life thinking bout her. Her attitude her behavior her looks her principles and every damn thing i can think bout her. After the F.Y.B.com i had to concentrate on my First exam of Company Secretary - The Foundation Course. The foundation seemed damn tough.. After FYBcom i had couple of months for attempting this exam. The F.Y.B.com exam ended in March and the Foundation was to follow in June.

Chapter 1. The Sugar free Sweetness...

After passing out S.S.C and leaving back all dos memories of my crushes i started fantasising the early College Days of my life.. Past is Past... My last crush of school days settled down in Tamil Nadu and ofcourse we did not have the blessings of Mark Zuckerberg and Orkut Buyukkoten then. With the intention of starting afresh i stepped into the temple of Higher Education - THE COLLEGE. My college was one of the best in  suburbs and i fulfilled my desire and aim of going with the best. Making an entry into a Commerce stream meant much was in store for me. Dont take me in a wrong way. I am not talking bout the career.. Instead i was merry bout those 5years of College Orgasm i will be further fantasizing..

Getting into a coaching classes and some homely lessons on accountancy with my father almost completed my part of studies. Rest of the time was for FUN... Nothing else...

The first year in college passed out in another crush.. This girl was none but one of my good school friend whom i tried to hit upon in 7th Standard (turning up to be a dissapointment). In the early days of college everything was new... the zest of making new friends, the fetish of befriending "more than average looking girls", and the spice of trying to hit on them.

The early days of SYJC started its own magic with the academic getting a bit tough and the girls even tougher. It was a known fact that most of the girls in the college desired a boyfriend just to kill the urge to dine in the nearby resataurant hardly 100 ft away from the main college gate, something called as Udipi Hotel aka Dosa Diner (DD). The Dosa Diner was quite successful enough in meeting out the needs of newly formed couples by arranging them a dining cabin. A cabin which was used less for dining delicacies and more for &^%$#... (u guessed it rite). In the first quarter of SYJC i got a chance for getting into a relationship. I still hate that day when i was all dipped in Alchohol and the girl took my proposal as *peene ke baad aadmi jhoot nahi bolta*. What the Helllll!!!!!!

I didnt want to break her heart. I got along with her after several ennquiries which revealed that she was hiting on me for sumtym. Whoaa... i neva expected a girl wud do that for me. It was a nice childish relationship and we spent time with each other in the college. My groupmates were more than Superb. The frequent visits to waterfalls in the monsoon was totally out of control. The Wangani waterfall was our regula hangout place.. I still remember how we made monetary contribution jus to impress the chicks although at the end of the day it was nothing but, a hole in the pocket.

In the mid of SYJC my childish mind started getting serious about the girl i was dating. It felt like made for each other. My parents were informed bout my relation by my Coaching Classes Sir. I was tortured by my parents by reducing my pocket money and increasing the time i should spend at home. My father started going wild on each line what i said and on each act what i did. Its all coz we were one of the known couples in our batch after other two established couples. .Life was easy but academics started getting tough. I started befriending many people.

                                                                SHE was one of them.

Lets not concentrate on SHE... She was some different concept at that time.. Just like an aquaintance. My life moved on simply but the academics a bit complicated. I enjoyed the former and cursed the later. My girlfriend showered so much love on me that i was of the impression that LOVE IS IN THE AIR. Then came the last quarter of the Academic year.. This quarter ended in less meets and more studies. The exams got over by March 4th and my parents had ensured that i dont spend the Vaccation with my Girlfriend.. They had booked the ticket to kerala and guess what!!! They didnt book the return ticket. I was well aware that i am not coming back soon. The ticket was on 9th she met me for the last tym on the same day.. I felt lyk i was going abroad for lifetym and will neva return back. I got the fact that my girlfriend is habituated to senti stupid BOLLYWOOD movies.

By the time i was in Kerala she got a job. A marketing job selling Topsline services. Felt good. I used to call her for more than 30 minutes a day. That meant a lot of money. The STD was never cheap in INDIA. I fantasized on call and made her feel like i was missing her a lot and she reverted the same way. My friends say that she cries for me.. AWWWW.... i felt bad but left wid no options. I had spend approx. 28days in kerala. That was a lot of time.. This tour of mine to kerala made me hate kerala.. You can never guess what wonders a girl can do with you. You can't actually hate Kerala but i was ofcourse an exception. I returned on 2nd of April in the morning.

I desired to meet her soon. But she worked hard and she showed by it leaving home early at 6. So wat?? I will meet her in the evening. I had brought her the famous freshly fried Banana Chips from kerala. My parents were under the impression that i bought it for my friend. "HOLY SHIT"

I decided to give her a surprise and i decided to meet her without informing her. The only F.O.B to Kalyan east made my job a bit easier. There was no other way from where she could go home. I waited from 5 in the evening and my eyes googled for her in every mob that followed after a train left Kalyan. Finally my eyes sensed something unusual at around 08.30. She was climbing down the stairs of the FOB energetically.She was always an energetic gal. I hardly remember a moment wen she had acted sloth. She never in her wildest dreams expected me. As she was passing by, you can say she was not more than 2 feet far from me. I called her and she expected some known voice calling her up but never expected me. Her smile made me forget all dos 28days of vaccation i spent widout her in kerala. I handed over the Chips (1 K.G) had a gossip for bout 12 mins and i left.

As days passed I started realizing that she is suffering the timings of her Job. I out of my unexpected caring nature advised her to quit the job. She was reluctant. She fell ill thereafter and this pissed me off on why she wants to retain the employment when there was no need. She was only 18. There was no such financial compulsion. This started showing the worse part of me. I started showing my authority on her. I said "either you quit the JOB, or i will Quit". Dont know making this statement was a boon or a bane. She surprisingly replied " I dont care what you do, i am not quitting the JOB." I consulted our mutual friends and then they told me some different story. She was into marketing job and had to roam around with her senior. Her senior had taken her to his house where he lied down on bed in a banyan to have a nap and she was listening to music. This is what my Girlfriend had said to them. But my wicked mind started wobbling. And i got furious on this.

My girlfriend had started getting more distant with me. And eventually the day arrived.

One fine day she said " I am tired of your possessive nature, I dont wish to be with you"..  I took it as an usual fight which we normally have. But this time she was serious. I wasnt able to take in anymore. I stopped talking and eating. My parents used to interfere when i used to stare at one place for a long time. they knew something was really wrong. I tried convincing her many times. She didnt answer the phone call. And every disconnected call made me go mad. This was at the end of April.

I was done with it. I started making up my mind that i am a bloody possessive person who has no brains to judge what their loved ones actually mean. I started thinnking that i dont deserve to be loved and let her go.

I met her after a couple of days in our mutual friends house. I was all merry to meet her. That time she walked upto me in such a manner that it stopped the Sarcastic moment i was having with her. She said " I really cant be with you, I already have a boy who loves me more than you. I felt my lips are turning pale my eyes humid and my hands chilled out. I was not able to meet the truth coz i neva felt that was the truth. I looked at her for some moments and the volcano of tears spurted out. My childish mind was hurt big time. A session of tears made me up. And i left the place.

I jus cant believe that when a girl is crying for a boy at times when he is out of state for about a month how can she get into any other relationship at the same time?? There are two possibilities 1) Either she was fooling me. 2) She was loving two at a tym. Whatever it may be. Any of those two was enuf to break my little childish heart. I had a small heart break. This short love story of mine which went on for not more than 9 months made me realize that its tym for growing up now. I should graduate to becoming a boy from a child in the same way as i will be passing out to Degree College from Junior College.

This Junior college sweetness was just like Sugar Free Tablets.. Which only gives a fake taste of sweetness But in the meantime it also improves your health as excess sugar is always harmful for health. You never know when you are diabetic.